Velvet whispers - 

Inaudible murmuring. 

Stifled secrets. 

Indigo shadows veil desperation - 

Obscuring desire. 

In a lucid azure dream 

I found you drenched 

Under a sapphire sky.

i have done it.

in a drunken haze i have never felt more clear and crisp and real than i do now. i am shedding old skin, sewing together new from the rags sprawled out in front of me. from each day and each month, each year i have let myself down - i am sewing with vigor and going off on a tangent i hoped would come. here it is. yes. 

i will not be used for validation.

i will not allow anyone to gut me with their words,
because i write, i should know just how empty an adjective can be.

sparks: impatient, crude, dangerously feeling out the design of anatomy on a stranger i can see myself falling in love with. i don't know him. my hands don't know any better, but i'm ready to reach out and let be. i'm ready to greet his pulse with a falsetto key. piano recitals and the stage is empty for us to fill our desires. i want him so i can remember i am wanted. selfish scarlet painted on my wrist. he is mine. he is mine. mine, mine? but i won't belong to anyone.

+ i am wearing the sun today on my shoulders. carrying a bouquet of flowers i ripped from my neighbors garden. i have stolen someone's innocence last night and today i feel like i am finally blooming from my sins.