Tears. Crying. 

No, it doesn't make me emotionally unstable. It gives me back my sanity. I am alive right? I like to feel it sometimes. That I have emotions, that I can let go every once in a while, (a few times in a year when things get too much) that I don't allow the heavy burdens to overpower me, that I don't hide it or pretend I'm okay.

I let it out, take a deep breath and regroup my soldiers.