ready to clean my skin. but i need to properly open my eyes first so i can discern between necessary offloading and compulsive perfection that's going to leave my promising cells dry.
the best source of support is myself.
what i'm going through right now requires my hand only. anyone from the outside would just hinder my process. this has been a month of awakening and weakening. first comes realization, then the downfall, then my rise. i need to gain self control. i need to remember my worth and preach it not only to my beautiful ones, but to my beautiful self. i need to stop writing poems to lovers that never were. i need to stop men from ruining my ambitions. i need to never again discard my instinct because the moment i did that i lost trust in myself.
i am strong enough to consume myself in a puddle and pick it right back up within the next 30 mins as though nothing happened. if you go through this on the daily you will understand the amount of YOU needed to preserve in order to continue living. the people i have currently allowed to take from my energy are thriving off it as i type this. i sense their leeching. they forget i can turn the power i handed to them, against them.
the best source of support is myself.
what i'm going through right now requires my hand only. anyone from the outside would just hinder my process. this has been a month of awakening and weakening. first comes realization, then the downfall, then my rise. i need to gain self control. i need to remember my worth and preach it not only to my beautiful ones, but to my beautiful self. i need to stop writing poems to lovers that never were. i need to stop men from ruining my ambitions. i need to never again discard my instinct because the moment i did that i lost trust in myself.
i am strong enough to consume myself in a puddle and pick it right back up within the next 30 mins as though nothing happened. if you go through this on the daily you will understand the amount of YOU needed to preserve in order to continue living. the people i have currently allowed to take from my energy are thriving off it as i type this. i sense their leeching. they forget i can turn the power i handed to them, against them.